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(this might not make any sense to you, but it made my day).

me lo tomé muy a pecho apparently.
ayer escribir ese mail deseando feliz cumpleaños y un sincero espero que la pases bien, creo que me liberó más de la cuenta. o será que tenía el síndrome de Atlas indeed!

And suddenly it seems that my shoulder blades have just shifted
It's like the greatest gift you can get
the weight has been lifted.

Eminem was so right about it. anyway, i felt so good, i still am. today i woke up at 6.20 -like i planned on advance-, which it means i slept 10 more minutes & by 6.30 i was awake (mentally speaking(?)). at 7am i thought i was already late, then i realized i left home at 7.15 (which was the time i thought i should leave to make it til the bus stop). i came, the bus was delayed, it arrived like at 7.40, but it was cool. i was taking it easy, the fact that it actually stopped, was awesome. and the gesture that made my day was that, after a couple of blocks, when a woman & her daughter went down, i asked some lady that was standing behind me if she would like to sit. i swear it made my day. i didnt even care arriving late at college, actually i thank that i had to enter through the back door & i was alone. cool day, so far.
plus, my conscience made me react, and though i'd love to have that Vans bag, its way too expensive, so i changed my mind. end of story.

ps: me olvidaba que, encima mi goyi dijo que capaz venía esta semana, o el finde, no se. el punto es que el sábado rindo yy encima está la feria de discos! && es el goyiii, that was the click. ♥.~

25 questions that provoke thought

What is it like to wake up every morning and pretend that you aren’t dying?
It's like waking up & living the day.
Do you believe in the death penalty? What if someone murdered your mother in cold blood? What if someone murdered a stranger’s mother, but saved your life the month before?
Yeah, I believe. I'd kill the murder & then commit suicide.
If you had a friend who spoke to you in the same way that you sometimes speak to yourself, how long would you allow that person to be your friend?
I still let her. I couldn't live without her (at times).
Would you rather be rich and paralyzed from the waist down or poor and able bodied?
Poor and able bodied.
What’s the most expensive gift you have ever received? Is it the best gift you have ever received?
Computer, or my education. My education is the best gift, definitely.
When was the last time you lied? Is it possible to lie without saying anything at all?
Recently. Yes it is.
Stealing is immoral, right? But what if stealing was the only way to feed a starving child?
Yes. There's always an alternative way.
If I gave you $20, what percentage would you –really– save? If I gave you $200,000, what percentage would you save? Should there be a difference?
I'd spend it in a week. I don't think I would save it, I'd invest it perhaps.
If someone could tell you the exact day and time that you are going to die, would you want them to tell you?
No.
If you found out you were going to die today, would you have any regrets? Would you be happy with the way you spent the last 24 hours of your life?
A lot. No.
What’s your single greatest moment of personal failure? Looking back on it now, did it make you weaker or stronger? What did you learn?
OOOOOH, I think it's a tie between two moments. Apparently made me stronger. "What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger", right? I learnt I'm stronger than I thought.
Do the words ‘freedom’ and ‘liberty’ mean not being persecuted or discriminated against, or do they mean doing whatever you please?
‘liberty’ means not being persecuted; ‘freedom’ doing whatever you please. Don't ask why.
Have you ever discriminated against someone? Imagine that a street gang notorious for wearing purple shirts has robbed and murdered several hundred people in your town. If a man wearing a purple shirt just rang your doorbell, would you answer it?
I might, yes. I'd grab a knife first(?) Plus, there's a chance I won't answer the door. I don't answer it most of the time, unless I'm expecting someone.
Is it crazier to choose to be poor or to spend 40 years of your life hating 40 hours a week?
it's crazier to spend 40 years of your life hating 40 hours a week. Imagine how much hate you accumulate!
Do you ever feel like you don’t have enough time? How many hours a week do you spend watching TV, or playing video games, or…?
Hahaha, it happens. I spend like 5 hours (or less) at the computer, and like 4 watching TV. oh my, life wasted.
Do you ever celebrate the green lights?
Yes.
If you could be given another talent or ability, what would you want it to be? Have you ever –really– tried to perfect this ability in yourself?
Read minds. I tried for a little while, but I thought it was worthless.
No matter how bad things get, are you aware that someone always has it worse than you do?
Most of the time, then I think I have no right to complain & start being grateful.
When you help someone, do you ever think, “What’s in it for me?”
No. If I help, I help. And that's all.
Joy is found with simple awareness. What does your joy look like today?
It doesn't look like joy at all.
What’s the difference between ‘living’ and ‘existing?’
Living is doing something useful from your life. Existing is just being around wasting oxygen.
Are you willing to sacrifice the life of your child or lover to support a war?
Are you out of your mind?
Do you ask enough questions, or do you settle for what you know?
50-50. I mostly settle, but when I'm intrigued I do a lot of questions.
If you could do it all over again, would you change anything?
I'm not sure, if I change something it would affect the future.
If your life was a novel, what would be the title and how would your story end?
sickgirl: you think you know, but you have no idea. I don't know, I've never thought about a title. Neither the end of my story, cause it's still being written.

50 questions that will free your mind

How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?
15 or 23.
Which is worse, failing or never trying?
Never trying.
If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do?
to please people, because we are a walking contradiction.
When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
No, I won't have said and done enough as I'd like.
What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world?
Humanity behaviour.
If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?
Cheering people in order to achieve things(?)
Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing?
Sometimes I'm just settling, some others I do what I believe.
If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?
I'd leave home, travel around the country or in a foreign country, and do more without thinking.
To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?
I have no idea.
Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?
doing things right.
You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire. They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend. The criticism is distasteful and unjustified. What do you do?
Well, since I don't talk when I don't like the topic. I'd wait til someone asks for my opinion or something like that, to say she's my friend. Tell some facts they certainly don't know about this friend. And then leave.
If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?
Love the life you live.
Would you break the law to save a loved one?
Hell yeah.
Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity?
I guess.
What’s something you know you do differently than most people?
Think/Feel, the whole mechanism, you know.
How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy?
I'm not like everyone else.
What one thing have you not done that you really want to do? What’s holding you back?
There are a lot of things. I am holding myself back, I can't help it.
Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?
Yeah, but it seems so damn impossible.
If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why?
San Luis, cause it seems like the politicians are making the things right over there & you can see there's a good life quality there.
Do you push the elevator button more than once? Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster?
No. No I don't, that's why I don't push it more than once.
Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?
Worried Genius.
Why are you, you?
Cause everyone else were busy being themselves.
Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?
Hell no.
Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?
Losing touch.
What are you most grateful for?
My mum & the family, music, MP.
Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones?
Never be able to make new ones.
Is is possible to know the truth without challenging it first?
No
Has your greatest fear ever come true?
No, Thank God.
Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset? Does it really matter now?
I never remember why I was upset in the first place.
What is your happiest childhood memory? What makes it so special?
When I adopted my dog. I was so decided.
At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive?
How recent? 2007 is ok?
If not now, then when?
Later.
If you haven’t achieved it yet, what do you have to lose?
Maybe nothing, but I don't like to lose.
Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever?
someone I know? Anyway, I don't think so.
Why do religions that support love cause so many wars?
I don't think It's a religion matter, I don't like them that much. They talk about different Gods when I believe it's the same for everyone.
Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil?
No, but I like to think that's possible.
If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job?
I have no job, but I wouldn't cause I'd like my job if I'm working doing that, right? That was so redundant
Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing?
More work! If I like it, I wouldn't even sleep!
Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before?
At times.
When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in?
I can't remember.
If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today?
I can't even imagine it. My two very best friends. My goyi perhaps. My cousins and grandma, my aunt.
Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous?
Hell no. I'd rather live 10 years without the spotlight(?)
What is the difference between being alive and truly living?
Well, you just breathe or you enjoy your life.
When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right?
When you feel your brain is going to explode.
If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake?
We don't want to fail.
What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?
I don't know. I don't have a problem with people judging.
When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing?
I'm not sure.
What do you love? Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love?
I love writing, listening to music, watching a movie.
In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday? What about the day before that? Or the day before that?
You know I won't, that's why I keep some kind of agenda/journal. Plus, like I would care what I did now in five year.
Decisions are being made right now. The question is: Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you?
I'm not letting others, but I'm not making them either, actually.

I want my innocence back

este tema de Emilie Autumn is goddamned weiiiiiird! pero no me importa. yy, no se. en 10 (o menos) empieza Paoloski. yo sigo acá, no tengo ni ganas de ir a la uni a buscar las fotocopias, porque al puto día le pintó llover todo de golllpe esta mañana (haciendome asustar pensando que me podía quedar sin net) & ahora sale el condenado sol. mal ahí. muy mal. PÉSIMO.
plus, no quiero ver a C. así que voy a intentar no estar cuando venga a buscar la webcam para ver al pibito. jeez, espero so-called fight después de que me la devuelva 8-)
encima intenté usar el horoscopo del face esta mañana. era malísimo, certero, pero ni ganas de hacerlo. prefiero quedarme con mi punto de vista & PRIDE, ja. y bueno. el que me llega al mail, tampoco fue de lo mas simpático. pero who cares.-
así que me siento como ZZ Top, si tuvieran la presión de tener que terminar los práticos de Algebra & RPA porque rinden en aproximadamente 18 días(?) La verdad que se ve mucho mas buena onda volarle la cabeza a los zombies ):
no, no me gustaron los Teenagers, se siente raro volver a escuchar un toque de Evanescence. anoche me hice mierda escuchando Linkin Park hasta que el nervous breakdown tuvo que desaparecer. incluso se sintió raro contentarme por el cap de Grey's JAJA.
que mal despertar el de hoy. que mal intento de dormirme last night. que sueño bizarro en una carretera/autopista que parecia no tener fin. de hecho parecía que el viaje duró todo el tiempo que dormí (o será que no te acordas de los otros sueños stupid sickgirl?). un viaje tremendo. con un flaco desconocido. pero en algun momento apareció Chris McCandless ♥ (a vos si que te gusta soñar cosas bien raras)- Aparecía Chris -aka Alex Supertramp- y me daba un journal, para escribir lo que vivíamos en la carretera (por qué no puedo simplemente decir ruta?). y después se volvía autopista, en algun momento se bajaba del auto, aparecía C. se robaba el auto conmigo adentro(?). y después la sacaba del auto & seguía el viaje by myself. me, el diario de Chris, el auto & the highway. OH POR DIOS, acabo de darme cuenta que mi pedido de anoche se hizo realidad ._. I was the highway just for last night! que genial. me acabo de alegrar la existencia sola. I am the highway, temazo, se hizo realidad en un sueño. algo es algo. be happy girl.