50 questions that will free your mind

How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?
15 or 23.
Which is worse, failing or never trying?
Never trying.
If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do?
to please people, because we are a walking contradiction.
When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
No, I won't have said and done enough as I'd like.
What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world?
Humanity behaviour.
If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?
Cheering people in order to achieve things(?)
Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing?
Sometimes I'm just settling, some others I do what I believe.
If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?
I'd leave home, travel around the country or in a foreign country, and do more without thinking.
To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?
I have no idea.
Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?
doing things right.
You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire. They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend. The criticism is distasteful and unjustified. What do you do?
Well, since I don't talk when I don't like the topic. I'd wait til someone asks for my opinion or something like that, to say she's my friend. Tell some facts they certainly don't know about this friend. And then leave.
If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?
Love the life you live.
Would you break the law to save a loved one?
Hell yeah.
Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity?
I guess.
What’s something you know you do differently than most people?
Think/Feel, the whole mechanism, you know.
How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy?
I'm not like everyone else.
What one thing have you not done that you really want to do? What’s holding you back?
There are a lot of things. I am holding myself back, I can't help it.
Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?
Yeah, but it seems so damn impossible.
If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why?
San Luis, cause it seems like the politicians are making the things right over there & you can see there's a good life quality there.
Do you push the elevator button more than once? Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster?
No. No I don't, that's why I don't push it more than once.
Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?
Worried Genius.
Why are you, you?
Cause everyone else were busy being themselves.
Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?
Hell no.
Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?
Losing touch.
What are you most grateful for?
My mum & the family, music, MP.
Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones?
Never be able to make new ones.
Is is possible to know the truth without challenging it first?
No
Has your greatest fear ever come true?
No, Thank God.
Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset? Does it really matter now?
I never remember why I was upset in the first place.
What is your happiest childhood memory? What makes it so special?
When I adopted my dog. I was so decided.
At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive?
How recent? 2007 is ok?
If not now, then when?
Later.
If you haven’t achieved it yet, what do you have to lose?
Maybe nothing, but I don't like to lose.
Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever?
someone I know? Anyway, I don't think so.
Why do religions that support love cause so many wars?
I don't think It's a religion matter, I don't like them that much. They talk about different Gods when I believe it's the same for everyone.
Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil?
No, but I like to think that's possible.
If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job?
I have no job, but I wouldn't cause I'd like my job if I'm working doing that, right? That was so redundant
Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing?
More work! If I like it, I wouldn't even sleep!
Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before?
At times.
When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in?
I can't remember.
If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today?
I can't even imagine it. My two very best friends. My goyi perhaps. My cousins and grandma, my aunt.
Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous?
Hell no. I'd rather live 10 years without the spotlight(?)
What is the difference between being alive and truly living?
Well, you just breathe or you enjoy your life.
When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right?
When you feel your brain is going to explode.
If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake?
We don't want to fail.
What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?
I don't know. I don't have a problem with people judging.
When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing?
I'm not sure.
What do you love? Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love?
I love writing, listening to music, watching a movie.
In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday? What about the day before that? Or the day before that?
You know I won't, that's why I keep some kind of agenda/journal. Plus, like I would care what I did now in five year.
Decisions are being made right now. The question is: Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you?
I'm not letting others, but I'm not making them either, actually.

I want my innocence back

este tema de Emilie Autumn is goddamned weiiiiiird! pero no me importa. yy, no se. en 10 (o menos) empieza Paoloski. yo sigo acá, no tengo ni ganas de ir a la uni a buscar las fotocopias, porque al puto día le pintó llover todo de golllpe esta mañana (haciendome asustar pensando que me podía quedar sin net) & ahora sale el condenado sol. mal ahí. muy mal. PÉSIMO.
plus, no quiero ver a C. así que voy a intentar no estar cuando venga a buscar la webcam para ver al pibito. jeez, espero so-called fight después de que me la devuelva 8-)
encima intenté usar el horoscopo del face esta mañana. era malísimo, certero, pero ni ganas de hacerlo. prefiero quedarme con mi punto de vista & PRIDE, ja. y bueno. el que me llega al mail, tampoco fue de lo mas simpático. pero who cares.-
así que me siento como ZZ Top, si tuvieran la presión de tener que terminar los práticos de Algebra & RPA porque rinden en aproximadamente 18 días(?) La verdad que se ve mucho mas buena onda volarle la cabeza a los zombies ):
no, no me gustaron los Teenagers, se siente raro volver a escuchar un toque de Evanescence. anoche me hice mierda escuchando Linkin Park hasta que el nervous breakdown tuvo que desaparecer. incluso se sintió raro contentarme por el cap de Grey's JAJA.
que mal despertar el de hoy. que mal intento de dormirme last night. que sueño bizarro en una carretera/autopista que parecia no tener fin. de hecho parecía que el viaje duró todo el tiempo que dormí (o será que no te acordas de los otros sueños stupid sickgirl?). un viaje tremendo. con un flaco desconocido. pero en algun momento apareció Chris McCandless ♥ (a vos si que te gusta soñar cosas bien raras)- Aparecía Chris -aka Alex Supertramp- y me daba un journal, para escribir lo que vivíamos en la carretera (por qué no puedo simplemente decir ruta?). y después se volvía autopista, en algun momento se bajaba del auto, aparecía C. se robaba el auto conmigo adentro(?). y después la sacaba del auto & seguía el viaje by myself. me, el diario de Chris, el auto & the highway. OH POR DIOS, acabo de darme cuenta que mi pedido de anoche se hizo realidad ._. I was the highway just for last night! que genial. me acabo de alegrar la existencia sola. I am the highway, temazo, se hizo realidad en un sueño. algo es algo. be happy girl.

Come what(ever) may: (this is sick+conclusiones estúpidas)

note: este post iba en el blog que no debe ser leído. iba a ser una lista de
items random & se convirtió en cualquier otra cosa. It's not worth it
reading it.

- no me banco las cadenas nacionales. odio que si se le canta, imponga y obligue a todo el puto mundo a escuchar sus divagues sin sentido. simplemente lo odio. por mas que en este caso sea por hablar de la solidaridad de ayudar a chile. loco, ayudá yy si la gente se entera, bien; no que andas contando todo lo que haces como para que la gente piense que realmente te importa.
- odio haber leido el msj de facebook, porque sabía que no iba a ser nada bueno (porque ultimamente nada son buenas noticias). actually, no news are good news in these days.

como te gusta escucharte hablar vieja. locooooo, basta de numeros, basta de 'en 1930 la economía estaba peor, y nosotros hicimos tantas cosas para mejorar la situacion'. la mieeeerrrrrrrrda, esta todo para atras. a pesar de haberme asustado el otro dia con el minimo temblor, preferiria que una ola nos desaparezca del mapa a tener que seguirmela bancando a esta tipa. que no hacen mas que robaaaar, se hacen los buenos y que ayudan & nada. no les importa NADIE. no les interesa el pais, no lo entienden? no capto como la siguen aplaudiendo. ni que te paguen dos mangos loco, no tendrias que aplaudir a menos que estes de acuerdo. igual entiendo que algunos fueron brainwashed.

calm down, just breathe. best adviced ever.
hay gente que tiene esa vibra que simplemente te calma. gracias por aparecer. porque sino siento que la cabeza se me infla como un globo, uno que lo mejor que le podría suceder es inflarse hasta explotar. al final ya no sabes si conviene preocuparte por la política, si algun día la corrupción se va a acabar, si vale la pena estar informado de cómo van siendo las transas o si simplemente sería mejor hacer la gran McCandless irte a Alaska & morirte ahí.
listo, ahora la terapia musical simplemente consta de romperrrrrte los tímpanos hasta que casi sangren, aturdirte al mango y que te duela la cabeza por nada, porque es mas fácil estar aturdido cuando estas despierto, que darte cuenta de todo lo que te rodea. es el punto donde no te bancas MAS NADA de todo lo que pasa. no queres saber más nada de nadie. no queres amigos cerca porque son para drama-. intentas recomponer las cosas con uno y automaticamente se arruina todo con alguien más. entonces me canse de todo. voy a sacar a todos, el que quiera volver, genial (o no, podría ser perjudicial para esa persona); y el que no, is fine too. no me puedo hacer más drama por nada. acá ya no me puede ayudar nadie y no puedo pensar en ningun personaje de mis favoritos, no puedo preguntarme más what would 'insert TV character name' would do? no, acá pienso: This is Sick, this is me, i'll do it my way & FUCK IIIIIIIIIIIT.
SCREW IT, i don't care. entonces por más que intentes permanecer cool para arreglar las cosas..

does it even matter?

creo que joder las cosas va a ser mas fácil. re que no debería buscar lo mas fácil, debería intentar calmarme. y después hablar. porque arruinar todo no va a servir de nada; y no quiero sumar otro regret right now.
lo que podría hacer es hablar con sky para donar sangre esta semana, aliviar mi karma, y mantener las cosas tranquis con ella al menos. donar sangre y tatuarme una oveja(?); no me importa, quiero tatuarme para saciar mis ganas de hacer algo distinto.-
y sí, es pretty weird, pero mientras muchos odian la rutina (me included, most of the time). I'm willing for routine. es tan genial saber que si me levanto 8.30 de lunes a viernes escucho a MP y me salva las papas, me aclara la mente. se que después viene la uni too, pero I'm looking forward for that. prefiero eso para distraerme del so-called drama que recurrentemente aparece. en fin, la bestia se calmó.

Lesson Learned

I’ve learned that you cannot make someone love you.
All you can do is be someone who can be loved.
The rest is up to them.
I’ve learned that no matter how much I care,
some people just don’t care back.
I’ve learned that it takes years to build up trust
and only seconds to destroy it.
I’ve learned that it’s not what you have in your life
but who you have in your life that counts.
I’ve learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes.
After that, you’d better know something.

I’ve learned that you shouldn’t compare yourself
to the best others can do,
but to the best you can do.
I’ve learned that it’s not what happens to people,
It’s what they do about it that matters.
I’ve learned that no matter how thin you slice it,
there are always two sides.
I’ve learned that you should always talk to loved ones with loving words.
It may be the last time you’ll see them.
I’ve learned that you can keep going
long after you think you can’t.

I’ve learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done
When it needs to be done,
regardless of the consequences.
I’ve learned that there are people who love you dearly,
but just don’t know how to show it.
I’ve learned that sometimes when I’m angry I have the right to be angry,
but that doesn’t give me the right to be cruel.
I’ve learned that true friendship continues to grow even over the longest distance.
Same goes for true love.
I’ve learned that just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all they have.

I’ve learned that no matter how good a friend is,
they’re going to hurt you every once in a while
and you must forgive them for that.
I’ve learned that it isn’t always enough to be forgiven by others.
Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.
I’ve learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken,
the world doesn’t stop for your grief.
I’ve learned that our background and circumstances may influence who we are,
but we are responsible for who we become.
I’ve learned that just because two people argue, it doesn’t mean they don’t love each other.
And just because they don’t argue, it doesn’t mean they do.

I’ve learned that sometimes you have to put the individual
ahead of their actions.
I’ve learned that no matter the consequences,
those who are honest with themselves go farther in life.
I’ve learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours
by people who don’t even know you.
I’ve learned that even when you think you have no more to give,
when a friend cries out to you,
you will find the strength to help.

I’ve learned that writing,
as well as talking,
can ease emotional pains.
I’ve learned that the people you care most about in life
are taken from you too soon.
I’ve learned that it’s hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice
and not hurting people’s feelings and standing up for what you believe.
I’ve learned to love
and be loved.

By Omer B. Washington